Sunday, 20 February 2011
I guess that from now on my posts will be a little bit more relaxed and about my daily life. By saying this I mean I'll be probably doing some update kind of posts on the weekend, because I'm sure I won’t have the time to blog during the week. So basically, classes have started two weeks ago. As I said before, I’m just attending English classes and Seminary. And obviously, I’m currently going through my internship. I went to the interview on the 10th February and I’ve started working this week. To be honest, everything was a little bit surreal, even though I was feeling ready and excited for it. I mean, three whole years have already passed since I’ve started Uni. Now I notice that everything that I’ve been wishing for is right around the corner, just two more years to go if everything turns out ok. Anyway, I was already expecting that kind of “you-are-all-by-yourself” environment but to be honest it was even worst. In general, it was what I expected it to be, people acting the way I expected.
Nonetheless, I do think that I did an awesome job for this first week. Since I didn’t have English classes (the teacher was away for a week), I kindly volunteered myself to work full-time during this week. It was indeed very demanding and hard-working! I was already feeling exhausted on Tuesday, to the extent that I’ve suffered from terrible headaches and overall body pain. Besides, I’ve even got sick and spent yesterday on bed. But as I said, I don’t think I could have done any better, since I’ve already tried my best and did everything that I was asked (and even things that I wasn’t asked at all).
This next week will be first time conciliating both classes and internship so we’ll see how it goes. I don’t expect it to be any better, but at least I don’t have to work seven hours per day. Anyway, I hope to get a hold of my current’s life rhythm as fast as possible or I’m sure I’ll become some kind of zombie really soon.
Friday, 18 February 2011
Monday, 7 February 2011
When you heal your heart and you start repairing all the deep holes that once bruised your soul, there is one of two ways. You can lie down, finding comfort in the memories of your own past. As the time flies, you’ll remember once again the beauty of a faraway smile, the consolation of some vague words that you swear you heard, the nostalgia of empty promises that time has taken away from you. And the holes will get bigger and bigger, as the holes of any old blanket, strangely lost to oblivion in the great wheel of life. And you’ll become yourself a hole, a crater of despair.
Or you can move forward, learning from the past, fulfilling all these holes with the faith of another future. And you’ll walk the path that life has chosen for you, without further fears or distresses. Slowly, you’ll let yourself go once again, like a sinking ship that loosens the shackles from the known harbor, its only pier and shelter.
In the way, you’ll open your heart once again and you’ll find yourself trembling for love, for live, for hope, like a child waiting eagerly for a new sunny day.
Suddenly, you’ll just know that the sun will shine again tomorrow. And the day after. Just because you have the power to make it shine.
This has been Joanne’s weather forecast.