Today, while facing pain expressions and several broken hearts around me, the question finally arouse: what is Christmas about? And I realized, with quite a bit of sorrow not necessarily for myself but mainly for others, that Christmas is a time of despair, when memories of the past, feelings already over pasted and sad emotions come again into the present. Today I saw tears around me and for the first time I didn’t want to cry. Because I realize that I need to be positive, if not for me, at least for those who are around me. Even though this Christmas will be the hardest of the past 20 years, I know I will be strong. Because around me there is still a lot of people that need to smile. Merry Christmas everybody.
I'm used to be the older sister for 14 years now. You were born when I was still a little girl. I remember my reaction back then, when mom went to one sonography, and we were all informed that you were a boy: I was actually angry, completely disappointed. I kept telling to everybody, trying to sound angry, why do I want a baby brother when I have already a baby cousin? What I want is a sister. But you were a boy, even thought around your childhood my attempts to dress you as a girl were actually common. The true is thayt sometimes we have our own quarrels about insignificant things and sometimes I feel like someone will end with his/her head chopped. But one thing I know for sure: we can't live apart from each other and between us there is an intensive, beautiful and cheering friendship. Right now, you’re going through adolescence and I can't help myself feeling sympathetic towards some of your dummy behaviours and actions (because I was there too and acted as dummy as you). Currently, I’m seeing myself questioning everything and everybody. I guess life wouldn’t make sense if it wasn’t that way. But one thing I’m sure about: my own emotions. So in the end of the day you can be sure as well that I will always love you.
One of the things that have always fascinated me is different cultures and languages. I guess that the fact that I’m currently studying Communication and Culture means by itself a lot. The true is that that I just love knowing about different cultural realities and learning some new languages. I remember it quite well (back on my High School days) not even thinking twice when was given me the chance of learning German. Consequently, I think that is quite an enriching experience to have contact with other people around the globe and making new friends outside our country. That’s why pen pal attracts me this much. For those of you that don’t know, pen pals (or pen friends) are people who regularly write to each other, particularly via postal mail. So for this purpose, there is a lot of websites out there were you can join. A pen pal relationship is often used to practice reading and writing in a foreign language, to improve literacy, to learn more about other countries and life-styles, and to make just new friendships. I have always wanted to join this kind of network but I never did. I do realize it is not that easy to just go out there and simply find interesting people. It will take a lot time and patience, I guess. Even in pen pals, the purpose has slightly changed and I know that most of the people are interested in other things than making friends and learning new things. I will give it a try, nonetheless. And who knows, maybe I will able to find a new friend from the other side of the globe.
So this is pretty much a collective haul from the last couple of months. I've been too lazy so that's why there are so many things this time. As I mentioned on my last shopping post, I wasn't going to buy too much for this up-coming Winter. I ended up just buying new high-waisted trousers, from Stradivarius, and some leggings from a local store. Regarding leggings, actually I hate them. Better, I hate the way people tend to use it. I guess is just easy to confuse something like this with trousers. People just need to understand that this is something more similar to tights; so, in short, it isn't okay to use it just with a regular length t-shirt. But anyway, I liked these leggings just because they look like riding pants and are super comfy and warm. Moving on, I also bought three turtleneck sweaters, one in black, the other in grey and the last one in beige. For me, this is just a basic wardrobe piece for Winter, since I can't stand being cold. And these are actually pretty inexpensive! Then, I bought some high-waisted shorts that I am in love with. I was looking for some nice ones and I just couldn’t find anything that would suit my taste but I ended up picking these, once again from Stradivarius. I just love to wear them with some black over the knee socks! Then once again, some more basics: I bought these three quarters shirts, in black, brown and red. They are pretty basic but the detail on the shoulders immediately caught my attention. Last but not least, I bought some long cardigans that were pretty inexpensive as well. The rest of the things are obviously accessories. I bought two round neck scarves, that are pretty warm as well and two hats. One is a black beanie and the other one is an actual hat that I thought was quite adorable. The bow detail is even cutter. The other things are my biggest obsessions for this Winter: brooches. I just think that they are just an amazing statement piece that adds a lot of visual interest in an outfit. The cherry one and the teddy bear one are from Cherry Blossom. I just loved them so I had to keep one of each for me. The spider one I bought from a local store. About the bow, it was from a local store as well. Anticipating Christmas, I've already bought some things that I needed, since I'm starting my internship on two months or so. I will obviously need some formal pieces since I can't wear jeans and this kind of informal clothes. Because of that, I've already bought some more high-waisted pants and other things that I will show you soon after Christmas.